Awaken

There comes a time in your life when you reminisce on daily life activities…. When you get caught between love, fear and dreams; and the haze in your eyes slowly pages up. When you're thinking how difficult can it be: to push and to shove just for a sense of belonging. Pushing and shoving to be accepted for who you really are. When you say enough fighting and crying or holding on….but through the midst you begin to look at the world from a new perspective.

……………………….this is your awakening.

You realize that is it time to stop hoping and waiting for something or someone to change, or happiness, love and dreams to come dashing straight to you. You come to the terms that nothing in life is easy. You realize that the future is not tomorrow but NOW. You begin to see that your life has been based on making other people’s lives better and ignoring your inner self needs and wants. You undertake self-introspection, rummaging for the things you like and trashing out what is no longer needed. In the midst of spring cleaning you realize that you have missed on so much in LIFE.

Yes, you have been in pursuit of your dreams and learnt that happiness is a counterproductive of success. Slowly you begin to open up to new worlds and different points of view. And you discover that you have missed out on so much, you never followed your passion, but your destination has been harnessed by your parents, forgetting that you have your own vision, goals and happiness to pursue.

You accept the fact that you are not perfect, in fact, no one is. Not everyone will appreciate or approve of who or what you are…..that is FINE, you should not be concerned about that anyway. People talk, they talked before we were born, they talking about our successes and failures now but neglecting their own businesses, and they will talk even when we leave this planet earth. So that should not bother you. You come to terms that you are unique and so is your road to your desire state (where you want to be). You stop trying to compete with anybody but gunning for what you want out of life. You take a long look to yourself in a mirror and you make a promise to give yourself the same unconditional love and support you give so freely to others.

You reminisce about what you possess and you start to give thanks for all the simple things you are blessed with in life, things that many people are dreaming to have. You begin to do things God admires; you become who you want other people to be to you and do things you want them to do. You travel the road which God will want to see us taking…the road of loving, sharing, and giving. Then you discover that it is through giving that you receive.

Then you begin to love and care for yourself. You stop engaging in self-detrimental situations, including participating in dysfunctional relationships. Relationships that are based on material things other than LOVE alone, for all other things are added on where love is shared on its full scope. You realize that you deserve the best and the best, in this context, will not only come from one person but will be tailor-made by both parties.

You are enlightened that fear has hindered you to live the life you’re ought to live. And it was not just any fear, but FEAR of the UNKNOWN. You learn to recognize your mistakes and rectify them or better yet, start on a clean slate and let go of the past. It is not your duty to save the world and sometimes you just need to LE’GO. Life is full of many opportunities, choose mazkhethele. You revivify yourself to do the things you’ve for ever wanted.

In the process of pursuit, you learn that it is wrong to demand that someone live their life or sacrifice their dreams just to serve your needs, ease your insecurities, or meet your standards and expectations. Then sense of independence is born of self-introspection. You begin to learn that greatest things in life are better achieved through your sweats. And that the most love you can ever get in this world is self love; and you begin to understand, your heart heals; and now all new things are possible.

You determine that life isn’t fair and you don’t always get what you think you deserve, and you stop personalizing every loss or disappointment. You learn to accept that sometimes bad things happen to good people and that these things are not an act of God……but merely a random act of fate.

Finally, you realize that with God by your side, with courage in your heart you take on the world, and your life can take a twist, so you take a deep breath and you begin to design the life you want to live as best as you can…coz you’re awaken. God will never fail you!

This piece is inspired by Sonny Carroll "The Awakening"