Awaken

There comes a time in your life when you reminisce on daily life activities…. When you get caught between love, fear and dreams; and the haze in your eyes slowly pages up. When you're thinking how difficult can it be: to push and to shove just for a sense of belonging. Pushing and shoving to be accepted for who you really are. When you say enough fighting and crying or holding on….but through the midst you begin to look at the world from a new perspective.

……………………….this is your awakening.

You realize that is it time to stop hoping and waiting for something or someone to change, or happiness, love and dreams to come dashing straight to you. You come to the terms that nothing in life is easy. You realize that the future is not tomorrow but NOW. You begin to see that your life has been based on making other people’s lives better and ignoring your inner self needs and wants. You undertake self-introspection, rummaging for the things you like and trashing out what is no longer needed. In the midst of spring cleaning you realize that you have missed on so much in LIFE.

Yes, you have been in pursuit of your dreams and learnt that happiness is a counterproductive of success. Slowly you begin to open up to new worlds and different points of view. And you discover that you have missed out on so much, you never followed your passion, but your destination has been harnessed by your parents, forgetting that you have your own vision, goals and happiness to pursue.

You accept the fact that you are not perfect, in fact, no one is. Not everyone will appreciate or approve of who or what you are…..that is FINE, you should not be concerned about that anyway. People talk, they talked before we were born, they talking about our successes and failures now but neglecting their own businesses, and they will talk even when we leave this planet earth. So that should not bother you. You come to terms that you are unique and so is your road to your desire state (where you want to be). You stop trying to compete with anybody but gunning for what you want out of life. You take a long look to yourself in a mirror and you make a promise to give yourself the same unconditional love and support you give so freely to others.

You reminisce about what you possess and you start to give thanks for all the simple things you are blessed with in life, things that many people are dreaming to have. You begin to do things God admires; you become who you want other people to be to you and do things you want them to do. You travel the road which God will want to see us taking…the road of loving, sharing, and giving. Then you discover that it is through giving that you receive.

Then you begin to love and care for yourself. You stop engaging in self-detrimental situations, including participating in dysfunctional relationships. Relationships that are based on material things other than LOVE alone, for all other things are added on where love is shared on its full scope. You realize that you deserve the best and the best, in this context, will not only come from one person but will be tailor-made by both parties.

You are enlightened that fear has hindered you to live the life you’re ought to live. And it was not just any fear, but FEAR of the UNKNOWN. You learn to recognize your mistakes and rectify them or better yet, start on a clean slate and let go of the past. It is not your duty to save the world and sometimes you just need to LE’GO. Life is full of many opportunities, choose mazkhethele. You revivify yourself to do the things you’ve for ever wanted.

In the process of pursuit, you learn that it is wrong to demand that someone live their life or sacrifice their dreams just to serve your needs, ease your insecurities, or meet your standards and expectations. Then sense of independence is born of self-introspection. You begin to learn that greatest things in life are better achieved through your sweats. And that the most love you can ever get in this world is self love; and you begin to understand, your heart heals; and now all new things are possible.

You determine that life isn’t fair and you don’t always get what you think you deserve, and you stop personalizing every loss or disappointment. You learn to accept that sometimes bad things happen to good people and that these things are not an act of God……but merely a random act of fate.

Finally, you realize that with God by your side, with courage in your heart you take on the world, and your life can take a twist, so you take a deep breath and you begin to design the life you want to live as best as you can…coz you’re awaken. God will never fail you!

This piece is inspired by Sonny Carroll "The Awakening"

Better Life

The beginning for me was the day I met you,

the start of life anew,
of having someone my whole life through.
Having someone to care,
at times when life is so hard to bear,
and having tales with whom to share.
Having someone to say "I LOVE YOU"
and mean it with all their heart,
that is what I have because I have you.

Now I share my breath with you,
And hold dear to the memories we've shared,
And will continue sharing in the times ahead.
I thank you now for giving me
A new beginning - a better life.

Sum1 like you

I have been pondering trying to understand the complexity of feelings I have for you,
Guess this did not help anyhow but hurt me
It has enlightened this personality in me that I did not know of
A personality which resonates regrets for no knowing I have someone like you
I can’t help but hurt bout this whole thing
The hurt I have inside is not an inflicted pain, but a touching pain
The kind of hurt that brings knowledge of the amazing things in my life
The hurt that can be healed with lots of love, care and tender only someone of your caliber can give
Someone like you is not easy to find
That is why I wish nothing but the best for you

In her eyes

Her eyes depicts enormous pain
A silent voice shouts for a friend
Deep in her eyes is a bucket of sorrows
Loneliness is tearing her apart
Though she tryna convince herself that all is alright
But you can see she needs to be loved
Her heart bruises blood of disguise
Because she has been hurt
Although her heart is not broken
Her eager to fall for someone again has been sucked out
She appears to be strong on the outerself

In her eyes, she wishes to find someone
Someone to appreciate her
Someone to love and make her happy
Someone to amend her heart and complete her
Someone to accustom to make her his priority
Someone to tell her everything will be alright when there’s no hope
Someone to confer a shoulder to lean on
Because she will cry no more
Someone to be her best friend
Someone to lend her an ear when she need to talk
Someone to reminisce with
Someone to pour waters with
Her eyes are spray-painted by these desires

Deep in her eyes she envy a best husband ever
But her envy fades away coz she smells no love
All she ever acquaints with is lust
She’s unfortunate to be used rather than loved
Every man coming in her life exasperates hope
Hope for “Mr. Right” but it all vanishes
For there is no love anymore
Yet she doesn’t give up, coz her heart is made of love
She gives her very best to each of her acquaintances
This is depicted through her eyes

In her eyes you can see she’s been thru it all
Yet she do not wanna relinquish
As each day passby, her age adds up too
Time is running out for her dreams
Dreams to have an ideal family
To be married and have kids
This is what her heart and eyes desires

Through her eyes she needs security
She needs someone to talk softly with her when she shouts
She needs someone to be her light when her days are dark
Someone who is gonna see her inner beauty
Because the beauty on the outside is for everyone
She needs someone to cherish every momento with
Because beyond the pain depicted in her eyes
There is hope for a better life
Deep in her eyes she is all a man can dream of

In this land

I’m caught up in a land
A land full of promises
Yet succumbed by so much hatred
A land painted with fear of unknown
Yet blessed with so many ambitious people
A land of liberation and choices
But we’re afraid to liberate ourselves
We’re scared to display our capabilities
For we’re portrayed by our own mistakes
Mistakes which got us where we are today
Mistakes which will get us to our destiny
A destiny to be travelled
For life is a journey
But we have turned it to a race
A race full of curves and laps
Interesting and challenging laps
Where we set our own speed limit
Coz we are liberated in this land

I’m caught up in a land
A land where only the fittest survive
Only the wisest make it
Not only because of the wisdom
But coupled with determination
The orchestration is strategic
Coz only strategists go up the ladder
A ladder full of challenges
Yet worthwhile to climb
It’s not going to be easy
But what have I got to lose?
This is a land of choices
You choose to wake up
And make things happen
Or to sleep, hope for some miracles happen
For this land is full of opportunities
Opportunities are seen by those who look for them
Not by those whom wait for them
But by those who creates them

I’m caught up in a land
A land with so much temptation
Deceitful acts to hinder one from succeeding
Yet the land presents rich soils for us all
Everybody can plough enough for themselves
I’m caught up in a land
Where one’s success brings pain to others
A land full of backstabbers
But I don’t waste ma time on such negatives
For God is my Sheppard
He leads me besides still waters of this land

Fear = Courage

Every minor thing I do
They make me wonder, am I doing enough?
I fear to sit around
Coz that will not bring anything to the table
I fear being wrong
That makes me give my best in life
I fear to make the same mistakes again
My fear is my courage

I have immense fear to fail
That keeps me on my toes
I fear not to do anything to change my life
That makes me hustle everyday
I fear to speak flabbergastedly
That makes me to be sentimental

I fear not to take risks
Risks are a bridge to success
I fear to love you
What if you don’t love me back?
I fear the Almighty Lord
Coz He deserves to be Praised!

My fear is my courage
That makes wake up everyday to do what’s right
I may not be perfect
But my courage is genuine
The fear I have exasperates the courage in me.