Now that you Gone

Your presence in my life was helpful. I learnt a lot and got to find what I have been rummaging for……my entire life. You gave me the meaning of life. Now I know that not everyone you bring close to you and share your sentiments with is cool. Some are but most aren’t.

Having you in my life brought some discomfort. I’ve always lived in fear. Fear of the unknown. It was always difficult to see the sunshine through the rain. I mean, what we had was “good”, so we both thought. Even though we would take shots from the dark, we never had a succinct direction for our ventures. There was never a shed light over us. We had our ups and downs like any other relationship. Waking up next to each other everyday got us thinking we had it going…we thought life was going on….but trust me we were wrong. Things were revolving around the circle.

Everyday was the same, it seemed so routine. We would do same things all over again, even when we changed, it would not make any difference because it would be one of the same thing over and over again.

I thought what we were doing was right. But how can a “right thing” be so wrong. It was such a waste of time. A game I reckoned. Now that you gone I’m starting to see and experience a different part of life. I am living without fear because what I have is a blessing from God. I live a complete life I would say, a life with no fears, lies nor secrets. Now that you are gone I know what is what. I know a full spectrum of life, that is.

Now I smile because you never gave me a reason to. Since you gone there is progress in my life. But after all I thank you for making me such a strong and a better person. Everything is going swimmingly now that you are gone and it is all because of You.